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I regret my theory that I am a result of incest. And a little about my Parkinsonism

Publicerad 2020-09-15 20:52:00 i Autobiographical notes, My family, Psychiatric medications, Psychiatry and psychology, Psychoses, Sickness and health,

In this blogpost from 27.7. I wrote following, that I have taken away now: "My mother has never mentioned to me that I'm not her husband's son, but a result of her incest with my oldest brother Josef." 
I had this theory because of some psychosises about it I have had, and because there are so many similarities between me and Josef, and also because he has haunted me so much during the years, have had so much care for me during the years, much more than any other in my family, including my mother. 
Now, after mailing with Joseph, I regret this theory, and ask for my mother's and Joseph's forgiveness, because Joseph has finally said to me that it was a lie, straight out. I believe what he says, he must know what he did when he was almost twelve. This was a fabulous story of my last psychosis, which was a very strange psychosis indeed, with Parkinson-symptoms, that still exists in me. My brain is a wreck. I think all the poison-medications that I have taken, have contributed to this. I shifted personality after I was handicapped because I jumped out of a balcony, and got Parkinsonism. Wikipedia writes about drug-induced Parkinsonism following: 
"About 7% of people with parkinsonism developed symptoms as a result of side effects of medications, mainly neuroleptic antipsychotics especially the phenothiazines (such as perphenazine and chlorpromazine), thioxanthenes (such as flupenthixol and zuclopenthixol) and butyrophenones (such as haloperidol), and rarely, antidepressants. The incidence of drug-induced parkinsonism increases with age. Drug-induced parkinsonism tends to remain at its presenting level and does not worsen like Parkinson's disease."
I have taken a lot of heavy neuroleptic antipsychotics over the last twelve years, mostly Zyprexa, but it was after I began to take Haloperidol that I really developed Parkinsonism-symptoms. I had them before in small scale, though. 


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Lars Larsen

Born 1984 in Finland, Norwegian, lives in Österbybruk, Sweden, poet, ecotheologian and ecophilosopher (though not an academic such), is also called "The monk" ("munken", he is monk in a self-founded monastery order, "Den Heliga Naturens Orden", "The Order of the Holy Nature"), he calls himself "Forest Man Snailson" (Skogsmannen Snigelson) because of certain strong ties to Nature and the animals, founded among other things through many years of homelessness living in tent, cot, cave and several huts in the Flaten Nature Reserve and the Nacka Reserve outside of Stockholm. He debuted as a poet in 2007 with "Över floden mig" ("Across the river of me"), published by himself, he has also published an ecotheological work, "Djurisk teologi. Paradisets återkomst" (Animalistic theology. The return of paradise") on Titel förlag 2010. He has published the poem collection "Naturens återkomst" (The return of Nature) on Fri Press förlag 2018 together with Titti Spaltro, his ex-girlfriend. Lars' professions are two, cleaner and painter (buildings). Before he was homeless, but right now he lives in Österby boende, a group home for mental patients 45 km northeast of Uppsala. His adress is: Harviksvägen 6A, 74830 Österbybruk, Sverige. One can reach him in the comments section on this blog. His texts on this blog are without copyright, belonging to "Public Domain".

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