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A correction to my blogpost about my mother's sins against me

Publicerad 2020-09-23 16:03:00 i Damnation, Evilness, Hell, Psychoses,

In this blogpost about my mother's sins against me I wrote following about my mother: 
 
"When I had a hell psychosis 2011-2012, she could not mention to me that there was no literally eternal hell, although she didn't believe in the literally eternal hell. It has been revealed to me that this is the fact, she has mentioned it to me. I believed in this psychosis that I had been eternally lost in the anguish hell, because I thought I had committed the unforgivable sin, a death sin. I thought this in earnesty for 40 days, in extreme anguish and darkness. She could not comfort me with what she knew was true, because it was not allowed to mention it loudly in our traditionally fundamentalistic home. I begged her for comfort every other hour for forty days until she forbade me to mention and think about the thing."
 
The Holy Spirit has reminded me about that I did not speak the whole truth about this in this blogpost. In fact my mother mentioned in the end of my hell psychosis that Satan would be exterminated, made nonexistent, in the end, but it could not comfort me, I said that it was cruel by God to do such a thing, I wanted Satan to be saved and stay alive. So my mother said the truth what she thought about damnation, but she said it late in the story, and it could not comfort me. This I did not mention in my blogpost, and I ask my mother's forgiveness for it. It does not make my mother so evil when we think about what I said now. But she should have mentioned it at once, that there is no eternal damnation in hell. 

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Lars Larsen

Born 1984 in Finland, Norwegian, lives in Österbybruk, Sweden, poet, ecotheologian and ecophilosopher (though not an academic such), is also called "The monk" ("munken", he is monk in a self-founded monastery order, "Den Heliga Naturens Orden", "The Order of the Holy Nature"), he calls himself "Forest Man Snailson" (Skogsmannen Snigelson) because of certain strong ties to Nature and the animals, founded among other things through many years of homelessness living in tent, cot, cave and several huts in the Flaten Nature Reserve and the Nacka Reserve outside of Stockholm. He debuted as a poet in 2007 with "Över floden mig" ("Across the river of me"), published by himself, he has also published an ecotheological work, "Djurisk teologi. Paradisets återkomst" (Animalistic theology. The return of paradise") on Titel förlag 2010. He has published the poem collection "Naturens återkomst" (The return of Nature) on Fri Press förlag 2018 together with Titti Spaltro, his ex-girlfriend. Lars' professions are two, cleaner and painter (buildings). Before he was homeless, but right now he lives in Österby boende, a group home for mental patients 45 km northeast of Uppsala. His adress is: Harviksvägen 6A, 74830 Österbybruk, Sverige. One can reach him in the comments section on this blog. His texts on this blog are without copyright, belonging to "Public Domain".

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